ALIVE

Updated: Jan 18, 2019




Oh we are definitely alive alright!!!! Hayley and I are from the same hometown and she is very close with my friend, Alex who I grew up with. Hayley was in a car accident a few years ago, that changed her life forever. I remember hearing about her accident, going to her fundraiser, and always asking my friend Alex, "how does Hayley cope with what has happened?" And I would ask this so frequently because I was so curious how she felt day to day, felt like I wanted to help, but didn't know how, and at the time could not relate, by any means, to having something taken away from me (I still had my hair). It's weird how life happens and how we were brought together. I remember one time so specifically, Alex told me that Hayley in a sense feels grateful because she would have never met all these great people that are in her life now, if she hadn't experienced that. And I remember being in awe and admiring her perception of the world, from afar.

So yeah, Hayley and I knew of each other, but had never really hung out until last April, 2018. I was visiting home from Los Angeles, and a few months prior (I just reread our first conversation lol on Instagram) I messaged Hayley and just told her how much I've heard about her and that she literally inspires the hell out of me. At this time, I had lost all of my hair and I swear to you, on my sad days, I used Hayley's strength to lift me up and keep me grounded. So yeah we would message randomly back and forth on Instagram and it was this beautiful, inspirational friendship that was being created and I feel like we were unintentionally helping each other get through what we each were going through. It was like we were lifting each other up just from some short, simple messages via IG. So come April 2018, I was back in our hometown and we tossed around this idea of creating a dance together to represent that regardless of all the shit we are personally going through, for us, it is both physical, but we feel grateful to be alive. And that is why we chose the song we chose. It also represents that there is no specific way you have to look or be or walk or sit or dance or talk or move. Everyone is their own person and nobody can tell you what is correct and incorrect. It felt like a celebration of how far we each have come, but looking back at the video now, we've already come so much further. Hayley told me she's way more flexible now than she was in this video, and that makes me smile, LIKE GO THE HELL OFF SIS, YOU ARE UNSTOPPABLE. So yeah when I was home in April, I got dinner with Haley, she came to my fitness class (because she's that much of a badass), and then we created this video together. Because dance is an expression of what you're feeling and a universal language that speaks in volumes without any words. It felt so good to be dancing next to this woman that radiates good energy and total acceptance of who she is. At this time, I was not open about my hair loss, I wore a wig and a hat like everyday and did not tell a soul. This video brought me one step closer to me sharing my story that I was so afraid to share. But when we were shooting, I remember I was so nervous my little neighbor was going to come out of the house and see me with a bald head, and Hayley looked at me, grabbed my arm, and said, "Christie you look absolutely beautiful, stop, don't let that get to you." And it just hit my heart, she is so unapologetically herself and she has truly helped me accept myself! So after hanging with Hayley the few times I did that week, I feel like she opened up a whole new perspective of life for me. Her experience could have taken her down a long, not so pretty road but she literally (wow I could tear up thinking about her) has taken what she has been given and soared, oh and the sky is the limit, more boundaries will be broken for her this year I just know it!!!!!! She is a powerhouse, in every way. I'm so grateful we know each other and could come together to express our individual emotions that may be similar in some ways but also may be very different in other ways... and everyone has their own journey through life and I want more people out there to lift each other up, like Hayley did for me that week!!!!!!!!!


I hope you enjoy this dance we created TOGETHER, and I hope you are open to it and let it remind you that whatever you are going through, there's always something to be grateful for in the midst of insane hardship. Let it also remind you that there is NOT only one way to be, or one box you must fit into.


HAYLEY I LOVE YOU, YOU CONTINUE TO BE SUCH AN INSPIRATION FOR ME--KEEP SPREADING THAT LIGHT OF YOURS. YOU HAVE HELPED ME OUT OF THE DARK AND HAVE TAUGHT ME SO SO SO SO SO MUCH... THE SKY IS THE FREAKINNN LIMITTTT GURRLLL!!!!!!!!!

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU.




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